my feelings exactly
rad! can’t wait for figure night at the studio!
Resting Black Woman, by Zinaida Serebriakova
Sometimes you have to accept that a person has moved on and just doesn’t care about you the way you hope they do. The feelings that where once there are there no longer and in it’s place lies regret and hatred. Not necessarily hatred but a hostility they can’t get over. They might be oblivious to it and have no intention of it but its there. It’s in the way they treat you. Accept the fact that she isn’t the same and theres no room for you in her new life. You must disconnect and start a new. It’s not that you love them any less but it’s the right thing to do. Perhaps I should say good bye since she’s been such a integral figure in my life and my work and although we might not communicate, she is present. She is present in a thought or idea. In a phrase or in a painting. She’ll always be there because she changed me. Through her I learned about many things. I tried vigorously and perhaps with my hopes too high. I must let go of this dream and search for a new one.
closer and better color shot of the Antonio painting. hopefully the texture is better represented in the shot. oil on panel.